and i wonder.. if you know.. what it means...

I woke up this morning realizing that life is so abstract, we see things one way and then the next so different. What you see is completely different from what I see. What you feel about the situation could be completely different from what I feel. We're like two people fighting over what's right and what's wrong.

Honestly, I've been going through this ridiculous time, it really is impossible, it feels impossible to me. Like, I'm starting to lose myself or lose my soul.. Could it be possible to lose yourself in a situation that you cannot find yourself at all? I've got so many questions to whether I am or am not doing the right thing.

Im lost in the sauce, everyone else seems so happy and content but myself I've gone below, under myself I'm lost and afraid, my hopes and dreams feel broken. Happiness is somewhere, something, someone that I cannot grasp..




"What the hell is this.." - Ryan