Je veux me situer à Paris.

"Over and over again..." That was what was spinning in my mind as she parked her red Mazda hatchback at Wal-mart. The song was playing on a constant repeat in my mind, though she would never know. No one would know, that secretly I had this extreme desire to leave her and explain my actions to someone I actually cared for. It was at this occasion that I realized that I was terribly unhappy.

Situations occur when certain things like this happen, they strengthen me and put me in a forward motion of where I must keep moving to find true motivation and happiness. It's here where I find that even though my fingers are freezing cold I must find the strength to keep moving on and keep typing my words in a melodic key and melody during type.

Many moments later I couldn't believe I had wasted so much time on someone that meant nothing when I could've been with someone who at one point of time meant the most. I remember I was too complicated in the first place. Doors were opened for me and I could've walked in but I didn't. It's kind of like having a beautiful girl offer you fellatio and you being a jackass turning it down.

"The terrible part within the entire situation was not that my current relationship at the time was a lie, but rather I was living the lie myself." - Ryan