pushing in..

"but i also think all of the greatest stories in literature deal with loneliness." - Tom Hanks

The push; it's those moments of deterrence, those times of hardness, those simple yet strong messages of "leave me alone" things that we tend to slave for when close to someone. Breaking us down emotionally and mentally; where as things as hope become our enemy and our greatest demotivator. It truly is one of the worst feelings in the world to give care for someone at 100% only to receive at the least a 50 perhaps even less.

Reasons are always there; in reality we just don't wish to let truth be known so we lay hopeful in our own facade which we've created to shield us from truth. We push people away to place them out from our hearts, or keep them further from our heart than we would like. It's our own defense mechanism that keeps the pain of heart break at bay.

Insulting as it may be; we pursue such a status in order to keep from hurting others as well as ourselves. Though many may think it selfish or a painful act, in truth we are just trying to be selfless, sacrificing what we want for the benefit of others.



"voids are filled, voids are made." - (the green book) Ryan D.