reviving of knighthood,

"The age of chivalry is never past, so long as there is a wrong left unredressed on earth." - Charles Kingsley

Sometimes I find myself closing my eyes contrasting how things are and how I wish they could be. It's a great fault of my own perhaps due to a scarred past, that I care so dearly for people who have reached or rather touched my inner circle to a point that I am honored and able to call them family. Honestly it's hard to fathom who you really surround yourself with until you know their inner secrets and painful past, the unfortunate truth is that I've always had this strange gift to read who people really are; from who's broken into pieces of tarnished glass and who still sees the world in it's own youth and innocence.

The broken are always the ones who rip my insides out; they play a facade to everyone, something of sort that keeps their demons at bay, though in truth I have always empathized with them to the point of almost complete no return. The pain they feel I am suddenly able to carry their weight, as if it were my own personal duty. Begging me to question;

"Where are all the heroes in this forgotten world?"

It's as if things intolerable have become the norm, and knights of the old world have died along with honor and chivalry. Unspeakable truths are brought to light when people are aloud to perform horrendous acts such as the beating of a woman to the murder of a child. As faulty within my own self I tend to question the essence of God; has he turned his back? My mind slowly lingers to the edge wondering what could have changed in that moment, whether it be someone not leaving home, or someone intervening.

My own empathy slowly turns to the rage of vengeance.. Is it strange to want to play God and change what has hurt so many people? I understand the consequences of how so much would differ, but if you knew and felt the pain of someone you cared and loved so much would you change it all? Maybe, maybe not, smiting those who would ever threaten people you care for? Playing God for the best or playing for your own selfishness?

"in a time of dragons and fiends, we call for help each and every day, awaiting a hero to awaken, a hero; within ourselves or amongst others." - Ryan D.