what is the key?

"That's the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it's impossible to ever see the end. The fog is like a cage without a key." - Elizabeth Wurtzel

Does it mask itself in happiness? Does it fake each smile? Does it linger in your thoughts? Does it leave you feeling alone? A continuous battle entails between myself and depression is what I find, though we all have our own high's and low's, right? The battles are persistent, most of the time they're nights waking up with cold sweats, gasping for air, grasping for life back, grasping for some sense of peace.

However, control is the key, keeping in control even when events turn unfavorable, even when life itself has stripped itself naked showing the scars and bruises, showing the blood and tears. As if keeping in mind simple slogans "keep calm and return fire" or "keep calm and kill zombies" or "keep calm and chive on" my personal favorite "keep calm and drift on".

I've found that at one point I had enormous amounts of armor; metaphorical shields which portrayed myself something of a prideful asshole, though as soon as it was all stripped, as soon as everything had unraveled and I had no choice but to maintain, find control within my own foundations, diagnose the issue, fix the problem, and move on. Easier said than done, though simply put.. shit happens, and you've only got two choices, a fork in the road.

In my departure, I'll leave you with some music.. (sorry for the errors, i didn't proof read, hah..)



"keep calm and climb higher." - Ryan D