what you keep close to your heart.

"I have looked into your eyes with my eyes. I have put my heart near your heart." - Popo John XXIII

Look me in the eyes and tell that I am in fact telling false truths, tell me I'm a liar, tell me I'm a fake. I find it strange how people lose friends and family; people we trust over knowing the truth of them. So many people close to us though it seems that when the chips are down people, they all seem to disappear. What is it with these acquaintances? As if your own personal time and advise were expendable.

I knew a man once; the type one would consider a brother, a friend of everything. Funny how a significant other changes the tides, how several bad decisions lose people you would consider to your heart the closest. Though I suppose all of it is a continuous trial and error service, right? I mean we move through people as if moving "through" people, we're whores to our friends that really are not our friends, they use us as much as we use them, each ounce of energy, dollar, blood and sweat is exchanged back significantly in order for all the same.

I have looked in so many people's eyes and I have known only to myself what they truly want from me, what truly lays deep down in their hearts. Though as much as of a sap I am I've always given in, I've always felt I could find truth in friendship in so many, strange how lessons are learned and time passes.

"Which door to choose? Which friend to choose? Which ally to keep?" - Ryan D